The Longest Chimera

This title was not chosen by chance, but by deep consideration. I will not write about my opinion of the band “Chimaira” which I do hold in dear respect (Rock on). This post is about the longest chimera of them all, Life. No, I’m not insane (at least not completely) I will not try to explain the intricacies, mysteries or solutions to one’s life. I am going to talk about friendship.

As all journeys need companions so does life. I cannot imagine enduring such a voyage, the single most difficult test laid upon us all, by myself. I confess that I am nothing by my own. I love spending whole evenings by myself, but while finding strength in the knowledge that there are people which I can rely on.

All this did not come in vain, it is not a simple collection of ideas, it has a reason. You see, I lost one of my dearest friends, if not my dearest friend, not long ago. I lost him not by fatality, not due to foul play but by choice. Few things in my whole life where so hard to surpass.

Ever since I knew him, I kept facing different challenges in my life. Some were hard to accomplish, some were easily conquered but all contributed in some manner to my evolution as a person. I kept meeting different people, some more educated, some mode sophisticated but all giving me the opportunity to learn and evolve with them too. I never imagined that while I just grew up I would come to find most of my friend’s behavior and ideology intolerable.

I’m not an intolerant person. I am not someone who’s idea must prevail above all. My friend simply did not change. At least not in the same way I did. I matured along the years and ten years passed since I first knew him. I saddens me to have to come to the conclusion that he still acts like a 16 year old and shares the same cultural background as one too. I am not one to discuss which of our personalities is better or worst, my point is we grew incompatible.

A series of unfortunate events led me to notice this but ignored it as it could simply be a misconception on my part, maybe I was being to harsh on him. The last drop was a simple “just for fun” argument turned sour, during the whole conversation I could only think “My god, are you a complete moron?” and everything he said could be effortlessly translated into “Yes I am, how come you never noticed?”.

And I never really did notice… but now you talk about it. Goodbye.

Metal Storm